I haven’t given up this on discussion but have only set up the framework. Many don’t pursue this question because it seems to them, and others, that simply asking these questions, is to question God Himself. It feels like a sacrilege or like a friend once said to me, “Mike, you better leave this alone…

I’m not going to do this every day. But, thanks to pray and a new little pill (which I only have 10 of) I slept a good 7 1/2 hours plus a 2 hour nap today after dialysis. Still a lot of catching up to do. This was a godsend. Doing my own driving back…

I said that when I write my ramblings,  they would be about thoughts, which reside inside my head, that look scary when you put them on paper. I will start with one of the most scary discussions. I have been accused, often, of being an over-sharer. I know when I wrote my book Butterflies in…

UPDATE: If you are skimmer, I will put bullet points at time and details at the bottom, if you want more. I’m still vertical. I’m still having to do dialysis three times a week as we are still hoping for my own kidneys to come back.  Keep praying for my kidneys to heal! Treating cancer…

UPDATE: I got up with some energy. Worked too hard around the house and crashed by noon. Didn’t think I would make it outside today. After a 2-hour rest in bed, we finally made it to the beach. So, my day’s objectives met. Rambling My Vice of Choice: Envy Most of us choice our vices…

Today, Sunday, is the first (and only looking into the near future) where there is nothing scheduled.  We have a few goals. I want to do some normal things, washing dishes, cooking, and a short hike. We want to rest (the real purpose of Sundays). I want to catch up on reading for fun and…

I’m sitting in a 4 hour dialysis in Oak Harbor as I type. It is surreal. Our first night home was glorious and rough. I don’t know if it is the cancer, which is still of course out of control, or the chemo, which, is trying to control it, but I started to feel pretty…

I am home resting and that is wonderful. Otherwise, I am speechless.

Tomorrow, God willing and no set-backs, I leave this hospital. However, it will be a very busy day. I must get one more 3- hour plasmapheresis session (to remove the bad cancer plasma), then receive my next chemo treatment, then race to Oak Harbor to register at their dialysis center before they close at 4…

We are trying to be patient. The sequence of treatments needed, and scheduling them in a timely way, is delaying the hopes of going home a few more days. We are shooting for Friday, but Saturday seems more realistic. Today, I got to go outside (first time since I was on my near-fatal hike 11…